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omg you are one of those writers who can keep up with herself and I’m really always in awe of that when I see it happening. as in, you’re always doing your best writing and it’s always only better and better and better. there is no peak for you, only the infinite sky. and I feel like there will always be things I’ll never write. sometimes living is the full story. sometimes life has to stay closer to the heart, the page being too far, too separate. I think I’m saying that the experience an artist does not share still leaks into her work, still shows itself as shadow. and still means something. I feel like I hold it all, even what I do not know, when I read your posts. ok now plz go turn on paid subscriptions lol.

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I LOVE you, the thought you put into being so supportive is beautiful, thank you thank you ❤️❤️ I also adore the idea of unshared experience leaking into the work!! I fear I don’t have enough writing for paid subscriptions but your support means the whole world always

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love love love you! there’s no rules to paid subs! I see it as supporting a writer vs expecting writing from the writer ya know? I feel like a lot of writers think they have to do special posts, different content, more consistency, but I don’t think it needs to be about any of that at all! paid subs to me is like, I want you to keep doing exactly this, whatever you want, and I’m encouraging that by paying you for the time and effort and energy it takes you to write what you’re already writing. like what you’re already doing is absolutely worth that sponsorship I promise you.

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this is my first time reading your work. I'm glad I came across it. I'm at this phase where I struggle with vulnerability in my works. you write richly, I love the clarity I just got from reading this.

And provoke versus evoke, it's so deep I'll go about my day thinking about it.

to be known is it vulnerability?

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thank you so much, I’m happy to have you here :)

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eve, this was literally incredible. so insightful and beautifully written. i'm forever in awe at your gift at weaving together different wavelengths of thoughts together to create such a cohesive essay. i literally was just talking to my friend about how being online has made me worry about the way i'm perceived a lot, and i just decided a few hours ago that something i wrote was too deeply personal for me to put on a big platform. so this came at just the right time. thank you <3

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this is so thoughtful of you Elle, thank you <3 I hope you feel generally like you have an appreciative community who care about you and will be sensitive to whatever you want to write, but even then it can be hard to figure out which parts of yourself you want to put out. always grateful for anything you choose to publish!!

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This was so perfectly written by far the best most raw expression of what I feels like to be perceived. Soooo good. Thank you!

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ahh wow thank YOU!!!

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SOOOOOOO FUCKING GOOODDD!!!!! I LOVE THE WAY YOU WRITE SO MUCB OMFGG 😭😭😭😭❤️

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thank u substack user d3athbyf0resk!n <3

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I was just thinking about this the other day. I’m an actor by trade, and while there’s plenty of vulnerability involved, it’s never felt as truly exposing as writing. Thank you for this piece! I will be re-reading.

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Absolutely love, you have a new fan!! I wrote about this too: https://open.substack.com/pub/erifili/p/the-vulnerable-internet-it-girl?r=7rrp3&utm_medium=ios

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It always makes me so happy when I read other people who write so well like this (really made my day reading a good writing). Love your work, keep writing<333

Much love❤️❤️

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thank you thank you ❤️❤️ lots of love

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such an insightful read! you put such complex thoughts and feelings into such beautiful words....amazed <3

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ahhh thank you sm 💘💘

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i've been thinking A LOT about being perceived in ways i can't control and this was so good to read, it felt like you were in my brain

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thank you!! (+ if only I was in your brain)

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that part about looking in the mirror was so vivid I forgot I was reading and not watching a film

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what a compliment thank you!!

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OH i’m so in awe of your talent! you write so beautifully, you’re seriously one of the most talented people here! You seriously deserve the world, you’re such a good writer. I always leave your posts a little bit wiser than before. I love you so much.

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ahh from you this is such a huge compliment Amanda!! so much love x

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this is my favorite thing you've written (so far), as i've been thinking and writing so much about this recently. the line "The reality that it’s impossible to be perceived on exactly your own terms is equal parts crushing and freeing" is going to stick with me for such a long time. i love you eve. your brilliance and your beautiful words are always a breath of fresh air for me.

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I love you this is so sweet 💗 thank you for always making me feel like my writing’s received with care

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will you burn me at the stake if i dare say this was so,,,,,,,,,,,, raw and authentic

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This was just excellent!

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holy cow. a magical thing happened that only happens when you read velvety prose which is my eyes could not stop moving until the words ended. incredible. and honestly i felt that i was put on blast. my words are still quite confessional and im having difficulty striking the balance between being authentic and being raw. i love this commentary on unhinged women, and to be real doesn't mean to be really crazy (spoken ironically from someone who writes like a crazy woman)

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